One month ago today, I was sentenced, without warning, to live without a helpmate, husband or man. The God above has already sustained me and the kids for one whole month. It has gone surprisingly fast (which is something I specifically prayed for). This doesn’t have anything to do with today’s post. It’s merely an “interesting” factoid.
I think I mentioned recently about my “being a taker.” It is completely true that I am always looking out for Number One. People don’t often recognize it because I am so slick at it to boot. I grew up poor and when I was able to start accumulating stuff….things, positions, etc….I started hoarding it. Being around Josh all the time was a learning experience for me because, you see, (up until most recently) Josh has always been a giver. I learned by watching him, what it meant to be generous. Picking up the tab or choosing generosity with gifts was how we did things when Josh was around. That type of life made me feel good. I felt secure and I felt privileged. Mostly hoity-toity-ness. What I have not learned but had to instantly put into practice is “the receiving of gifts and love.”
Once the news of our broken family was out, I knew, right away, that I would have to learn to be gracious – not my strong suit by any means. I said to myself…. “No matter what anyone asks or offers, just say yes.” Early on, it was based in recognizing my own inabilities to make sensible decisions for myself and having to trust the people who love me to keep me moving forward in wisdom and then obviously, so that I could allow people to shower us with love in their own special ways. I have learned in one short month that there is no limit to what God can do through a community of believers. If you are not a part of a church family, don’t delay. You need to be in one so you can give of yourself and receive when needed.
We have received numerous meals, free dog grooming, jewelry, money, letters, cards, CD’s, flowers, groceries, books, online resources, free professional counsel, walking buddies, childcare, taxi services, a massage, scripture, love texts and emails, hugs, kisses and prayers.
Some are easier to accept than others but the overwhelming sense of love I feel from every bit of it has been verging on surreal. I just want to take this opportunity to say “thank you” to everyone who has reached out to us however the Lord has lead you. Life is settling in for us. I believe that God pre-ordained the timing of all of this. The kids and I have one month together before schools starts and each of them have one week of camp which gives me one special week with each child. Even K (who is normally very busy), has had a freed up week giving us all some quality time together to figure this new life out. None of this was on accident.
One final little update. I get overwhelmed whenever I start thinking about all of the prayers going up for Josh, K, D and me. It is so cool to think that people are constantly praying all around the world: Afghanistan, Germany, Guatemala, Hong Kong, Myanmar, the Philippines and of course, the U.S. I imagine the world turning and at any part of the day, someone is praying specifically for this family. Within the states, I know for a fact that people are praying from: Arizona, California, Colorado, Florida, Indiana, Kansas, Massachusetts, Mississippi, New Jersey, North Carolina, Oregon, South Carolina, South Dakota, Texas, Utah, Washington and Wisconsin. Keep in mind, these are just the ones I know about. If you can add to the international or national list, please feel free to leave it as a comment. It is great encouragement to me.
We feel loved and that’s thanks to you.