What has to happen for God to get glory? Anything? My mantra since this new life journey began has been “Everything for God’s glory; No matter the Cost.” This was birthed in me when I thought I was going to “fight the good fight” for our marriage and Josh’s restoration. Of course, he left 12 hours later. Every day, when I journal my prayers, I ask that God do ‘this-and-that’ so He would get all of His due glory. This makes me wonder. If someone turns away from living a life for God’s glory, does God still get glory? Was God glorified when He hardened Pharaoh’s heart in Exodus? David Platt says that the whole reason why we evangelize is not so that other people can enter the kingdom of heaven, but rather that God would get glory. It sounds easy to say that when a prodigal son returns that God gets glory but what if the ending were different? What if, perhaps, the son died before he came back? Is Gods glory then found in the way the other brother lived or the way the father lived? Do I now have to live even more holy to make up for those who have chosen to live for their own glory?! Quite frankly does anything I do ever give God glory? For Pete sake! Sometimes it feels like I can’t do anything right…If I have the capacity to give God glory, then do I have the ability to DENY God glory? It sounds crazy that I have anything to do with whether or not God is glorified. God is God! The guy who put the earth on its foundation! The One who put the universe into motion! He tells the sun when to come up and when to go down. If nothing else happened except the creation of the universe and planets orbiting around, would that already give God all the glory He needs? What does my puny life mean in the grand scheme of Creation – much less the Glory of the Cross and Resurrection?!?! Well…I suppose it is made even MORE glorious that the blood was shed for mankind…not just so the rocks could cry out.
And the second prong of my question is…what has to happen in this scenario for Satan to be a victor? Is he already victorious for the pain and destruction he has created in my life and in the lives of our kids? Was he made a victor when Josh resolutely decided to leave? Maybe it was before that. Maybe it was the final time I manipulated Josh for my gain which proved to be the last straw…or maybe it was the first time I acted out of selfishness which set into motion this end result. Of course, the battle is not over yet, right? I mean, God could work a miracle if He wanted. I can’t imagine that if God decides not to intervene, that somehow, Satan then wins. Or, does Satan give himself a tally mark every time someone turns away from God? Obviously the bible is clear that in the end, God ultimately puts Satan in his place.
Ugh. My brain hurts.